It’s Finally Done!

We have made it to Colorado, though the trip out was not easy. We had some mechanical issues and severe weather to navigate, but we arrived on time and spent the first couple of days getting our issues resolved. We are now set up alongside a beautiful creek in Golden, CO, with a walking path along it that stretches out in both directions. And Mandy enjoys the creek every day.

Next week, we will head north with stops for conversations and sightseeing in Rapid City, SD, Sheridan, WY, Bozeman, MT, Kalispell, MT, and hopefully in Calgary, AB.  Then, we’ll work our way homeward through Washington and Oregon. If you want to join us somewhere, let me know.

I am writing this to let you know that my newest book, It’s Time: Letters to the Bride of Christ at the End of the Age, is finally complete and ready for purchase. You can order it in paperback ($10.99) or e-book ($8.99). If you purchased the Kindle version for Part 1, the new version with Part 2 will be added to your file the next time you update it. It may already be there.

This book has been a labor of love over the past three years. When God first put it on my heart to write it, I knew this would be a very different book for me. It would be like living loved on steroids, through the darkest challenges life can throw at us. What I didn’t know at the outset was how my life would be put through the wringer in so many different ways as I wrote it. Through it all, I have discovered a depth of trust in his love and rest in his work that has rewritten the script of my life in a wonderful way.

Everything Jesus has taught me in the last five years is in this book, how the life of Jesus and his goodness can shine through us, regardless of whatever darkness we face. That’s what Creation yearns for and what the world needs to see—a people who have found their Life in him, and nothing that happens in this world can destroy it.

Now, I want to share all of that with you.

It’s Time is about God revealing himself in his sons and daughters as the end of days unfolds. I’m not a date-setter, but I will be surprised if this world makes it another decade before Jesus returns. Whether this is the end or not, I cannot say with any degree of certainty. I see signs that make me wonder, and the possibility delights my heart. If this is not the beginning of the end, then when it does come, it will look a lot like this.

The time of Jesus’s coming may be at hand; the time for letting his love be revealed through us definitely is.

Here is an excerpt from the last chapter:

These pages carry a gentle invitation to draw into the deep places where our love and trust in him aren’t based on us getting what we want, but the simple and profound magnificence of his presence in us. This is how Jesus prepares us for whatever may come. Too many followers of Jesus are playing the world’s games, thinking they are following Jesus. They have been deluded by the lie that the kingdom comes by coercion. Their wounded hearts look to lash out at their perceived enemies. Their only hope is to be loved back into life, where the tactics of darkness hold no sway.

“Even so, come quickly, Lord Jesus.” (Revelation 22:20)

That phrase makes my heart soar in a way it hasn’t before. I’m convinced we live in the moments before the dawn. Certainly, darkness seems to rule everywhere we look, but for those with eyes to see, the skies have already begun to brighten ever-so- slightly on the eastern horizon.

And, here is the Table of Contents

  1. It’s Time
  2. Is This Where It Ends?
  3. This Scares Me to Death
  4. Who Are You to Write Such Things?
  5. The Tender Call
  6. Following the Lamb
  7. The Power of Tenderness
  8. Love What Is True
  9. Eyes to See, Ears to Hear
  10. Only One Thing Matters
  11. Love, Rest, and Play
  12. Rise and Shine
  13. Riding the Wind
  14. By Every Word
  15. The God-Shaped Life, Part 1
  16. The God-Shaped Life, Part 2
  17. Embracing God in Our Pain
  18. Holding God’s Pain
  19. Children of the Day
  20. Stand By
  21. And Then the End Shall Come

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It’s Time: Letters to the Bride of Christ at the End of the Age
221 pages, paperback ($10.99) or e-book ($8.99)

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“The Transforming Power of Divine Affection”

Before we leave for our adventure to Colorado, Canada, and back again, let me give you some updates that might be of interest to you. If you’re along our route, please let us know if you want to meet up with us, and possibly others.

First, here is an interview just published by the Reader’s House in London about some of my publications. It captures well what I hope my life is about:

Wayne Jacobsen has long walked a path that leads beyond the boundaries of traditional religion. With wisdom born of experience and a heart tuned to quiet truth, he invites readers to rediscover the essence of a faith grounded not in ritual or performance, but in love. His work, from the profoundly personal He Loves Me to the globally resonant The Shack, speaks with clarity to those who feel displaced within conventional church structures yet still yearn for a vibrant connection with God.

Over the years, Jacobsen has become a trusted voice for those navigating spiritual disillusionment. His writing does not impose—it invites. Whether exploring spiritual seasons in In Season, the nature of authentic community in Finding Church, or addressing deep societal divides in A Language of Healing for a Polarized Nation, he consistently returns to a central theme: the transforming power of divine affection….

You can read the full interview here. 

Second, we are just putting the finishing touches on the print version of It’s Time: Letters to the Bride of Christ at the End of the Age. We had previously published part 1 of this book. Now it will all be combined in one book and should be available by the end of the month. I’m also completing work on the audiobook, which should be available at your favorite outlets by mid-September.  I will let you know.

Third, Father continues to open some wide doors for me to assist many who have left what is known as the 2×2 church. Somehow, my books, especially Finding Church,  have deeply impacted many in this group, and it has opened the door for me to come alongside them in this season. If I had written that book just to be available to them in this season of their life, it would have been worth it. It takes tremendous courage to separate from the faith community you grew up in. I admire those who have had to move away because of abuse by those in leadership and in recognition that the legalism they were under stifled their faith rather than encouraged it. Many along our route this fall have asked to meet with Sara and me.

Fourth, we fell woefully short on our last need in Kenya. I realize many of you are getting tired of hearing about ongoing needs there, and there have been a slew of them this spring and summer. We advanced the rest from Lifestream in hopes that more contributions would come in. If you have anything to help us do that, please visit our Donation Page at Lifestream. You can also Venmo contributions to “@LifestreamMinistries” or mail a check to Lifestream Ministries  • 1560 Newbury Rd Ste 1  •  Newbury Park, CA 91320. Or, if you prefer, we can take your donation over the phone at (805) 498-7774.

For the next couple of months, I’m unsure how much updating I’ll do on the blog or how consistent our podcast will be at The God Journey.  Sara and I are taking some time away as we take an RV trip to Denver to visit our son and his wife, and then spend some time in the northern states and hopefully Canada. Our priority with this trip is to give Sara space for more healing in the beauty of the forest and mountains. We’ll also be gathering with people in various places along the way.  As time allows, I’ll keep up with email and see what is left for blog posts and podcasts. Please be patient during this time, as it is mostly about relaxing and being present with the people Father is arranging for us to be with.

Here is how our itinerary is shaping up at this point, though these plans are tentative:

  • August 25 — September 4, Denver, Colorado
  • September 5 — 7, Rapid City, SD
  • September 9 — 11, Sheridan, WY
  • September 12 — 13, Bozeman, MT
  • September 14 — 18, Glacier National Park
  • September 19 — 21, Calgary, AB
  • September 26 — 27, Coeur d’Alene, ID

From there, we’ll choose a route home, most likely taking us into Washington and Oregon.  We’ll see where the wind of the Spirit blows us.

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Urgent Need in Kenya

We got word today that the mother of one of our key people in Kenya passed away after a long battle with cancer. As these things work in Kenya, the hospital is holding the body until after the medical bill is cleared. The cost for medical and funeral expenses is almost $16,000.00. They have been able to raise $6,300.00 from friends and family, and have asked if we could help with the remaining balance.  So, here I am again seeking your help.

If you have anything extra this month, please visit our Donation Page at Lifestream. Please designate “Kenya” in the Note section of your donation, or email us to let us know that your gift is intended for Kenya. You can also Venmo contributions to “@LifestreamMinistries” or mail a check to Lifestream Ministries  • 1560 Newbury Rd Ste 1  •  Newbury Park, CA 91320. Or, if you prefer, we can take your donation over the phone at (805) 498-7774.

As always, every dime you send will end up in Kenya. We do not take out any money for our administrative costs.

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In Celebration of The God Journey

This week, The God Journey celebrated our one thousandth episode after 21 years of slinging freedom all over the place. We’ve encouraged people to think outside the box of religious obligation and discover a connection to Jesus deeply steeped in his love, with a growing trust in what he is doing in the world.  We asked people to send us brief statements of what this podcast has meant to them, and we were overwhelmed with the stories people told us. Since we couldn’t read them all on the podcast, we are posting them here for people to enjoy:

Jon: Somewhere along that journey, I discovered The God Journey podcast, and I started listening as often as I remembered to.  The episodes that I have heard over the years have been such a blessing in my spiritual journey. After some trial and error, I came to the conclusion that maybe he doesn’t want me to start a house church, but maybe he just wants me to learn how to love my neighbors and those that he brings into my life, and I learn how to experience his love in my own life on a daily basis. My life hasn’t been perfect, and I have gone through some tough times, like my 17-year marriage ending in divorce in the Fall of 2011, but I have loved having Lifestream and the God Journey to help mentor me and speak to my heart as the journey has moved forward. I am looking forward to seeing where this journey takes us in the coming months and years beyond episode 1000!

Miche (Ohio):  The conversation with God over and over and over while listening all these years:
God: Did you hear that?
Me: I heard something.  Can you help me overcome my fear of thinking about that?
God: Yup.
Me: Thanks!  I like these guys.
God: Me, too.

Dieter (Germany): The podcasts I’ve heard, along with the books and personal meetings, the best way to describe them for me is that you have been great helpers of my joy. Sometimes I feel that Religion still poisons my life, but often what you share echoes Jesus in my journey of life.

Ron (Ohio):  After numerous attempts at getting God’s approval, including counseling, 12-step groups, self-help books, church attendance, Bible reading and memorization, watching television preachers, and listening to radio preachers, I finally came to the end of myself. That is when the real God Journey started in earnest, close to 15 years ago, when I found this podcast, or when this podcast found me. The kicker was during one of the openings, with these words from Brad. ‘The God Journey… those few words say an awful lot of true things. This isn’t my journey… I am just a supporting actor in a greater drama that isn’t about me.” Learning humility, how to rest, love, and play in the Father, finding true community where it is least expected, in the unorganized places…a God Journey that is not in my control, but God’s. And that has made all the difference.

Jeff:  Hey Wayne, Sara, Brad, Kyle, and all your awesome guests, thanks so much for all the podcasts over the years. You have all given me a picture of what “living loved’ looks like as we go about our daily lives. Your words have encouraged me through my own religious deconstruction through the years. I’ve learned about “yuck meters” and true authenticity. I look forward to every Saturday or Sunday morning to soak up another series of insights. I love laughing with you all as well as feeling your pain and sorrow. Your words and discussions have enriched my life in so many ways. I feel empowered to live in His love and express acts of kindness to others.

Douglas: I have been listening for probably 15 years and can hardly wait for each episode. You, Brad, and Kyle have truly blessed my heart over the years. I have read your books and been blessed, and just finished chapter 21 of It’s Time. The thing that has blessed me the most is that you give your thoughts and opinions, but you always encourage me to, not believe you but to check everything out with my own studies and the Spirit, and see if it is true. That has taught me how to listen to what Father wants me to know, do, and be. Thank you for always giving me things to ponder and seeking God in my God Journey.

Simone (Austria): As an enthusiastic podcast listener from Austria, I am pleased to be able to speak up. A few years ago, I read your book He Loves Me. It had appealed to me, but my heart was still so caught up in legalism that the truths could not fall on prepared ground. Seven years ago, after many years of legalism and serious but desperate discipleship, I found myself in a desert. I was totally burned out, taken out of the race, and I just had to capitulate. There, I had only one question: “Who am I?” Over the course of several years, Jesus took me by the hand and taught me step by step who Heavenly Father was and who I was. I came across the book, Finding Church, and was shocked. It accurately described my situation and that of my very legal church. Suddenly, I noticed that this book was by the same author as the book He Loves Me and So You Don’t Want To Go To Church Anymore. My curiosity was aroused, and I went online in search of sermons from you, Wayne. That’s when I came across Transition, and I was totally moved. These lectures helped me so much. And then I searched your website and came across The God journey. I was so hungry for these truths and wanted to know about people who lived what you had talked about in the talk. I didn’t know any Christians around me, and I was so grateful to see you, Wayne, and Kyle, who talked about it and lived it in their lives. I then listened to your podcasts and soaked up everything that tasted like life and freedom – and there was a lot of it!!! It was my provisions and my comfort in my legalistic environment!! I have been able to learn so much from you over the last few years. I experienced your crises and victories a bit and you were role models for me! Thank you!!! And what was one of the most exciting things for me: not only did I experience change, but I was able to experience “live” in the podcast how you changed under the loving gaze of the Father. I felt how, in your brokenness due to your marital crisis, you, Wayne, became softer and gentler. I think you can even see that in your voice and in your warmth. And you, Kyle, through the years that I “follow” you, you have learned so many valuable insights and, above all, pastoral help for yourself and passed it on to us. Without your podcast, my life would be a lot poorer and more joyless. Every Friday, I look forward to each new episode and often listen to it more than once until a new one is released. I am fascinated by the fact that God can connect hearts over so many kilometers and from such different cultures. But that’s what the Bible says. What a privilege that I can experience it in my life. I thank you, and I am happy that you have such a big heart for brothers and sisters who have also set out on the God journey! Thank you. Thank you. Thank you!

Nicolai (Netherlands):  I started listening to the podcast sometime in 2007.  It was very nice to listen to a podcast that gave me insight and words as to why I was actually so reluctant about how the church often does things. But it was the same podcast and the book He Loves Me that made me realize that being loved and trusting Father, which implies that I don’t have to convince others that I am right (still a process ). Earlier tonight at the grocery store, a woman started talking to me after I offered my help in grabbing something for her from the top shelf. Her husband had recently died after 16 years of marriage. Ten years ago, I probably would not have been able to bring myself to listen to such a person without judgment and would have felt uncomfortable and struggled with whether to pray with her, tell her the gospel, then feel guilty for not doing it, judge myself, etc. I still haven’t walked on water, raised a dead person, healed, or brought someone to faith in Jesus. But this evening I could be there for her and really listen for a moment. Are these the greater works? At least a work in me and the podcast certainly contributed to that.

Jenny in the U.K.: I’m grateful in the podcast that you always stepped away from the idea of ‘being a follower of Wayne’, and gently encouraged there to be no middle man, to be ‘a follower of God’. It could have been so easy for me in those early days to put you up on a pedestal and follow you, and the ideas that you had introduced to me, instead. Being young and early in my proper freedom in God, I got frustrated easily that I didn’t seem to be progressing, and God didn’t seem to be doing what you said he would do if I came to rest and relax in him. Yes, my thinking was still tangled in some of those old ways of thinking still! So, what The God Journey meant to me at first was a slaking of my need and desperation to know how to get to know God more and find this new reality. I drank up your and Brad’s words, like they would save me. Gradually, gently, without me even realising, God’s work behind the scenes in my heart, my thinking started to transform, and I intuitively began to feel God’s heart more (though, with plenty of mistakes along the way, and always probing to see if things that I thought were true or not). Instead of desperation, a need, The God Journey came to be an enjoyment. You and Brad, then you and Kyle, provided a companion with whom to chew over ideas and thoughts. A relaxed sharing of your thoughts and experiences to ponder on my own God journey. I really appreciate how you enabled this through stepping well away from any encouragement to ‘follow Wayne and Brad/Kyle’. The God Journey enriches my thought-life and encourages me regularly in my journey with God. My life is incredibly horrific right now, and I still have much pain between God and me, but I always look forward to listening to The God Journey. Thank you to you, Brad, and Kyle for The God Journey podcast.

Stephen in Japan:  For me, personally, your voice in particular has been one of the most influential voices in my walk with Jesus over the years. A big part of that is that I love the fact that you don’t take the didactic path, but instead draw out ideas in conversation in a way that makes me, as a listener, feel like I’m part of it. I also appreciate your openness to new exploration and growth. Instead of staking out your territory and just camping out there, as so many do, you really do seem to be on a journey yourself. It has helped me to detox from the human-constructed organization of ‘church’ and open my eyes more to the living Body of Christ. So, here’s to another 1,000 episodes, more sacred cows tipped, and more extended burns where Simon misses his stop as a result.

Jack (South Carolina): I was first captured by you and Brad just before The Shack was released. I remember when you started talking about sacred cow tipping. (I even bought the shirt but I wore it out.) and knew I was listening to the right guys. Oh, how I loved those conversations early on. It was like you and Brad were discovering and learning how to live and love without religious overtones and obligations. Your “slinging freedom” in conversation often became fits of laughter in which I, like many, I suppose, loved to hear and join in. I am so grateful for the God Journey and all that you, Brad, and Kyle have done to keep it alive and going. You cannot imagine the impact of joy and understanding you all have had in my life. Looking back at your second podcast titled, “The adventure of a lifetime”, that title could not have been more appropriate.

Kate:  As you approach a milestone, I would like to say thank you. Sara, your courageous, vulnerable, and honest offering of your story on several podcast episodes has been such encouragement for me. Rarely in Christian circles do women leaders share the struggle, the now and not-yet of healing, and the regret and the tension of wondering. You are an inspiration to me as you struggle with the past and consider how to “be” fully you, fully Sara in the here and now. Wayne, your understanding of God’s unconditional love and your pursuit of authentic communities and relationships has supported my journey in such a foundational way. I have been listening for 14 years after I read the book, So You Don’t Want to Go To Church Anymore. You showed me that it’s okay to long for more—long for relationships beyond meetings and programming. Your words have revealed again and again that over-functioning and exhausting performance does not equate to a greater threshold of God’s love or power. Most importantly, I grew up thinking that if I just did all the “right” things, my idea of the “great design for life” would unfold. When life didn’t happen as expected and I was suffering with despair and regret, your words helped me understand that the love of God does not guarantee my idea of a great life. Thank you for awakening me to a more expansive perspective.  I am so very grateful for the podcast, for the blog, and for the books that point us to a deeper experience of living real and living loved.

Jeff (Colorado): Years ago, as I grew more and more disillusioned with church and all of the junk that goes on there.  Not to mention a source of deep wounds for me, I was prepared to endure another lecture when the pastor told us that there was this new book we should avoid—The Shack.  I was searching for it on my phone as he droned on with the lecture.  I downloaded it and had it read the next week.  This was the first time someone told me that the finger wagging at me was “especially fond of me”, rather than “especially disappointed with me”.  Mind blowing, unimaginable, counter to all I had been taught… could it be true?  Then I had to know who wrote this story.  I easily found the author, and then I discovered The God Journey.  I think this would have been in early 2009.  I was hearing thoughts, ideas, and questions that I had had for years, but was told were wrong.  When I heard the idea of taking a new believer and having them spend a couple of years just focused on what it means to be loved rather than what it takes to get God to be happy with me, I had to start.  I spent 5.  During that time, I began to see that it was possible.   I started to see our employees, customers, and almost everyone in a new way. I learned to get up each day and think, “Okay, what do we have to do today?”  That led me to a man one day, in his home, in a sales call.  He was a cop in a high school.  We live near Columbine, and while this cop wasn’t in Columbine, all school cops in this area are on a different kind of alert.  That got us talking, and that led to his daughter.   First, he told me he was raised in a strict Church of Christ environment.  His daughter had gotten pregnant in high school.  Then married a different guy soon after and had another child, then cheated on that husband with yet another guy.  He called her “white trash”.  There isn’t much to say to that.  It is heartbreaking to hear.  We have daughters.  My sister became pregnant in high school, too.  I cannot imagine being that disappointed in one of our girls.  In the middle of this conversation, I found myself thinking, “Okay, God, how in the world can this be what we have today, because I have nothing?”  And out of nowhere, I thought of the story of Jesus and the adulteress.  I asked him, “After Jesus wrote in the sand, and the guys left, what did Jesus tell her?”.  The cop quickly said, “Go and sin no more”.  I actually had to remember, Oh yeah, that is in there too.  No, I said, the other thing.  He didn’t know.  When I said, “Your accusers don’t condemn you, and neither will I”, I had chills.  I mentioned that the one who could throw the first stone chose not to.  He still chooses not to for all of us.   This helped define how I am loved.  I still don’t know if that moment was for him, for me, or both.  It doesn’t matter.  I left his house, and all I could do was replay the conversation over and over and then ask, “Why in the world would you tell her to stop sinning?”  Don’t you know better than to tell us that.  I joined a friend for lunch, thinking that since God knows better,  “sin” must not mean what I think it means.  We had been meeting for a few years by this point and had read He Loves Me, Bo’s Cafe, So You Don’t Want to Go To Church Anymore, and listened to the podcasts.  We were part of the expanding conversation. We talked it through, and after a couple of weeks, my friend brought the verses “My people have committed a compound sin: they’ve walked out on me, the fountain Of fresh flowing waters, and then dug cisterns— cisterns that leak, cisterns that are no better than sieves”  BOOM. This could be the “sin” that Jesus was referring to.  After committing what was said to be sin, adultery, and feeling that God was disappointed in her, she just gave up and gave in to the wrongdoing.    If she understood that he had it all covered and there wasn’t much she could do to earn it, that the one who could condemn her chose not to, it would be easy to accept that living water.  She was loved!  I am loved!   I think that I might be figuring it out.  I am one of the goofs who went back and listened to all of the podcasts.  Many of them, over and over again, I have found that things I thought were just “contrary thinking” on my part that should be kept to myself were also being thought about and talked about by other believers all over the world.  All part of this ever-expanding conversation.  I had been following doctrines, the current “translation” of the Bible, and a conformance-based organization.  I didn’t need to ask that question, “Ok, what do we have today?”.  Learning to do this changed everything.  When you launched the “This Changes Everything” series recently, it really did help to remind me that our efforts to be righteous are just building cisterns and that building those cisterns is just the second step in rejecting the Living Water.  And, then, “Jesus not telling us what to believe but how to live, and yet the creeds are  ONLY telling us what to believe”.  More change.  After almost 1000 podcasts, I still look forward to what the conversation will bring next, what we might have to participate in today.  Thanks to all who are part of the conversation, but it doesn’t cover it.  It is all I have at the moment.  When the podcasts end, I will probably go back to the beginning and start over.  Just to see what I may have missed.

John and Jill (New York):  We are regular listeners of your podcasts for probably at least 15 years.  Many aspects drew us into your orbit of sharing and living loved.  Number one is interesting, given that we are about the same age (71), married for 50 years this past June, and more importantly, share some parallel paths that were walked. You left your church in a major awkward power play, and we left our church of 25 plus years, deeply invested in elder and deaconess activities over disputes with the pastor, who really did not like our influence and direction, which was at odds with his personal desires. God told me to leave in a dream, and we have not looked back at all. Your sharing  “He has more to teach you if you leave than if you stay,” has been on the mark for us as well. Our old church “friends” are no more … and I am sure they cannot understand why we have not connected elsewhere in another body.  After many hard conversations just before we left the church… and God telling us to leave … I felt like I was a fighter pilot being ejected and just enjoying the parachute ride to earth in complete silence! Many thoughts come to mind that impressed us with your podcasts:

  • You certainly lived out what you teach in your recent tough times with Sara’s trauma. You totally committed to what the Spirit was telling you to do while it was at odds with your personal desires … and no “caving” in—an amazing example of God’s love flowing through you and depending totally on Him.
  • We sense your teaching is authentic … without ulterior motives  and certainly absent of a need for “cash”
  • When we attended one of your local meetings with families in Massachusetts, similar to your podcasts, you didn’t come with an agenda that you tried to “fit in” to the conversation. You listen first, and then responded with what God puts on your heart.
  • You have introduced us to “My Friend Louis,” Father Gregory Boyle of Homeboy Industries (and others that you have invited to the podcasts ), with similar authentic experiences of living life with the Father.
  • You address current events in a way that sows the seeds of peace and trust in the Father’s love.

May your podcasts and other activities continue for as long as the Lord leads. You have been a blessing to us and several of our close friends.

Lyndon in South Australia:  When I first contacted you about my story, some years ago, it was about 18 months from the event that changed the worst day in my life to the best one. The false accusation that blew my world apart but was then retracted had taken me from contemplating a really dark end to suddenly being surrounded and permeated by a physical, tangible presence of God I had never experienced before. Inside that presence over the following days and weeks, I was numb, like I had died but just hadn’t left my body. So I often just sat confused, but enveloped by this undeniable feeling of God that was the real thing to me. I finished the “Jake book” I had just started before the blowup, and it reignited, along with my current experiences, a deep longing to know this God I was feeling right now, as opposed to the God I had abandoned some 20-plus years ago. When I tried to imagine what this looked like ahead, I saw nothing. All I knew with absolute clarity was that it looked nothing like the religious picture of God from my past. It wasn’t so much a choice as to not even be on the radar to possibly compare. The big issue was my mind, which couldn’t make rational sense of any of it. I look back now and I see my mind as this programmed dystopian world ruled and constructed from experiences from the world, religion, and learned self-preservation. A landscape of fortified bunkers with loudspeakers on tall towers constantly feeding me a narrative of lies about myself and God. Then I tuned into the GJ.  I can’t tell you how incredibly therapeutic it was to listen to voices that talked about a reality of God that aligned with everything I was feeling on the inside. The banter, the honesty, the humour, the listener engagements all centred on this idea of relaxing into a reality of “living loved”. I had never heard God discussed in such a relational way by people outside the religious sphere with no monetary agenda.  The dialogue was so refreshing to me, and it helped to reshape and challenge so many preconceived ideas I had just accepted about God’s character.  I even went back and started listening to the first podcasts from 2005 onwards while I was driving to and from work and between jobs. It didn’t matter the subject material; what stood out was the presumption in the conversations that God is always present, loving, and looking to engage with us. It was always done in such a manner to never subvert or replace God but to direct us back to hearing God for ourselves. So thank you, Wayne, Sara, Brad & Kyle. Thanks for the willingness to be open, transparent, to share honestly your journeys, to be vulnerable, and just plain real. Today I still listen in, it continues to be a rich, fertile input into my journey with thoughts and insights that help give language and perspective in this ongoing discovery of God. Six years later, that presence remains as strong as it was back then; my kids have often joked, “Ah… Dad’s sitting in the dark again”. It’s true, I sit alone with the lights off and just marinate in this spiritual reality, which my mind deeply resents from not understanding hardly any of it.  It usually catches up eventually, like hearing the late news at the end of the day. Today, trying to stare into the future, I still see nothing. God doesn’t seem to trade in certainty, just the assurance of trust in his goodness and character. I heard this recently: “God is not a mystery to be solved, but a presence to embrace”.  I like that, I can do that. And I want to thank you all from the GJ people I have never met from the other side of the world for helping me see and experience this in my own journey.

James and Charla: We’ve been listening to the God journey since 2004. We both met in 1976 in a Bible school where we were learning to love and follow Jesus. We married that year, and I taught in the church, led worship, and later, we went to the mission field with YWAM. In the mission field, we didn’t attend church because there were none, so we were accustomed to walking a solitary walk with Jesus in strange lands. In 2002, we came back from the mission field to one of the churches that had supported and stood with us for years. However, there was a clear sense that we didn’t belong there any longer. The Holy Spirit actually began to tell us to “come out from among them”, even though we had friends there and were expected to join their leadership team. It would not come out until twenty years later that two of the most respected ministers in the church were having an affair from 1992 to 2012. In 2004, I began to truly wonder if it was right or wrong that we were not going to church and didn’t want to. So I Googled, “Why don’t I want to go to church anymore?”, and the first thing that came up, was the unfinished story of Jake Colson, and that’s how we were introduced to Lifestream and shortly thereafter, to the God Journey podcast. We’ve enjoyed it for many, many years, and have been encouraged by all of you for all these years. Thank you for making a sanctuary in the wilderness for so many of us!

Lisa (Ohio): You have been, for many years, and still sometimes are, my only community. My healing has been slow, from religious trauma, among other things. It began about 2009, when I began to feel the weight of the religious control. I sought out different institutions, experiences, trying to find the “real” Jesus—not some man’s opinion on who he is, and not truth through men’s filters. I stumbled much along the way, but each new iteration, which ultimately led to more disillusionment, kept leading me to him…process of elimination, I guess! I mean, I loved and served him for 40 years. But I had no real understanding of his heart for me. Enter Wayne. I met you for the first time in KY. I guess about 2015. Right as disillusionment had begun again in the place where I was serving. I was starting to believe for the first time that Jesus’s love for me was more than I could imagine, more than songs, and scripture, and the hyped up love bombing of people whose idea of being a believer entailed conforming. And when I never could, the marginalizing would begin all over again. I was not good enough. With the interpretation of the gospel laid down in your book, He loves me, I began to finally see a picture that made sense to my heart. A view of the Father not based in fear, superstition, or rules I never could somehow interpret correctly. Where striving ceased, and simply receiving became a place of rest. The God journey has been my church, my community. I have not found lots of people, so far, who are engaging and living free. (the feral faithful) I don’t get to technically interact with you guys in a relational context, though you have always been so gracious and faithful to address my struggles when I shared them with you, Wayne. I have been lonely at times. But honestly, it was more withdrawal pains from what wasn’t healthy to begin with. That carried discomfort, pain, and confusion at times. But Jesus has sat with me on my couch, wherever it was, and was with me in it. I’ve gotten to share from time to time with someone. I have a few friends who let me be me. I’ve gotten to love people I might have been afraid of before. I still get confused. I still get triggered into fear. But it’s less and less as time goes on. I don’t know what to do about that. I’ve just lost my desire to “do.” You have been there for me, my church in the world, and I’m part of the conversation in my mind as I listen and talk to God about what captures my heart. Maybe God intended more, but its where I am. I hope you guys don’t stop anytime soon, but I trust him; even then, he will take care of me. Wayne, I hope I get to see you again someday, but if not, I’ll see you with Jesus someday. Thank you for The God Journey and putting the pearl out there in the world. Thank you for the podcasts, and keep them coming for another thousand!

Pete (Maryland): Though I had read all your books, Wayne, from the first ones I bought from you at the Pa Coffee House back in ’05/06,  I had not listened to any podcasts til My Friend Louis, which I couldn’t stop listening to over two weekends.  And then what a blessing to have you in our home several times since The Shack came out. But it wasn’t til you had to cancel your trip to be with my dear 50-year friendships in Austin that I knew something serious had taken place. Several months later, when you told me I could catch up with your ‘life’ by listening to the podcasts starting with Unforeseen Circumstances.  I listened to all of them that Labor Day weekend and wept through them as it was a similar story of Candy’s trauma and our story back in 1983-1993, though I did not respond as you did, and thus the 10-year journey through it. I would highly recommend every husband, especially the 50% plus who are married to one who was exposed to such trauma in their childhood or youth.  Your podcasts, especially with Sara, so opened my eyes to what Candy was experiencing [40+ yrs ago], and how I could have been a helpmate to her as you were to Sara. What an example for other Christ followers today!! I am so grateful for the Lord’s love and kindness and patience with me in healing our marriage and giving us four incredible years while the boys were in high school, prior to cancer taking her life. For the past three years, I haven’t missed a podcast and listen to them usually several times by the weekend or beyond!!! Keep them coming!

Alisa: I just wanted to share what the God Journey podcasts have meant to me (and also my family, especially my husband, Mark) over the years. I first found “you” after reading The Shack and doing some online research about 18 years ago. We have listened to your podcasts with Brad and now Kyle, off and on throughout those years. My husband Mark and I moved to Thailand just before my 40th birthday in 2001. We were both registered nurses and joined a team wanting to do medical clinics and community development with impoverished Hill Tribes in Northern Thailand. Mark had said when we moved here that God had spoken to him, saying that, “About 20% of the work I will be doing through you…and about 80% of the work I will be doing within you”!! Well, that has certainly been true. Our “God Journey” here has been most fruitful in helping us grow in our knowing and experiencing Him – especially outside the box of Christianity. Having your books, especially He Loves Me and The God Journey podcasts, has been incredibly helpful in affirming our journey. Through these podcasts, you have honestly been a big part of our faith community (without actually being present). We not only listen, but also have many discussions revolving around the podcasts. Knowing there are others out there along the same path has often been a huge comfort in many ways. Before moving here, I had no idea how deeply immersed the missionary community would be in religiosity! We often find ourselves without any like-minded believers to share with in person. I also want to mention that the “Love, Rest, Play” teaching has been especially helpful to me personally. Through the years, I have read, reread, and listened to the audio version of He Loves Me! While this has been helpful and impactful, I have still really struggled to “remain” grounded in my experience of His love. It’s like I have believed it 100% in my mind, but somehow it just wouldn’t come through (despite many tearful prayers) into my heart. But something about the love-rest-play combination and hearing you and Kyle continue to expound upon that concept has really started to seep deeply into my soul.

Jill (Texas): Others will put it more eloquently, but simply stated, The God Journey has brought me from death to life. Drowning in a fear-filled, performance-driven life, He Loves Me and The Shack opened my heart to experience daily that I can live loved by Father. His forever love enabled me to enjoy an Alaskan cruise with no fear of drowning!!! That’s a big deal coming from someone who can’t swim. About the trip: how a sharecropper’s daughter raised on a dirt farm in central Texas could find herself in the luxury of a Viking cruise, experiencing the majesty of God‘s creation, is beyond me. God‘s greatest gift came in the relationships that were developed – the people I got to love, encourage, and pray with were definitely the highlight! The ripple effect of God‘s love being dropped in places you never expected to be can’t be measured or predicted, only experienced.

Lisa (Florida):  You guys are the ones who know how to put your thoughts into words so well, which is one of many reasons I enjoy listening to your podcasts. For those of us who don’t have “community” as you often describe, you are our community. It is encouraging, sometimes challenging, and often a blessing to our hearts to hear you talk about what is living in our own hearts and minds. I can’t thank you enough for the time and effort you have given, leading up to the #1,000 podcast. That is amazing!

Jonathan: Wayne and Kyle, thank you so much for your honest and authentic ponderings you share with the world once a week through The God Journey. My dad turned me on to this podcast back in 2020 when the World seemed upside down and so unpredictable. You guys helped me keep my eyes and heart on Jesus as I was navigating the loss of a job due to the pandemic while having my second kid. I am so grateful for your voice as one that I trust. I may not agree with every single thing, but I trust your hearts that have lead me to ponder, and wrestle with matters of faith, sin, trauma, and belief. Just recently, I was really struggling with some as yet unredeemed struggles in my life, and the next day I listened to you guys talk about contentment, and it was like the Holy Spirit just whispered some things to my heart that just took me back from striving to rest. This happens so much. I really, really love you guys. I bless you and thank you! Here’s to the next 1,000 episodes!

Patrick: For me, the journey began with discovering  Jake’s Story online.  The adventures of Jake and John gave focus and a language and companionship to a journey that Father had already been inviting me along  . . .  and then as I listened to the intimate conversations of Wayne and Brad (as well as Kyle now ) the truth and reality of relaxing in Father’s love and affection began taking on substance and form as that journey matured.  To try and write a brief synopsis of TGJ’s impact on myself and my family feels like trying to drink from the flow of the Iguazu Falls, but suffice to say that I am eternally grateful for Father’s kind guidance through each of your lives and voices.  Thank you to each of you and your many guests over the years . . . the seeds of love that Father had for me to experience were watered and harvested because of your honesty, transparency, and vulnerability.  Looking forward to the Family Reunion that is anticipated from the Trinity’s love and relationships.

Georgia:  The God Journey has meant so much to my life and my walk with the Lord. I’ve listened to every podcast once or more. My life has changed from legalism and dictatorship to a loving walk with the Lord. What I have learned through the God Journey is a new life in Christ. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Charlie (Pennsylvania):  The impact of the God Journey on me is like the difference between a movie and a TV show. In a movie, details, character development, and timing are so abbreviated that it’s difficult to bring in the humanity of an individual or a story. A TV show, on the other hand, is able to include the mundane, the down moments, and let us truly get a glimpse into the ordinary life of the characters that the movie format doesn’t dig deep enough into. The God Journey has been the TV show perspective that I and countless others have needed to see glimpses of the Journey regularly unveiled. Not just the highlights or catchy quotes, this way of sharing has brought us the person of Jesus rarely brought out, in the gentle but funny ribbing you give each other, more quiet but insightful world event commentary, and the real intimate events of your lives that make listening so relatable. Because of this, the God Journey has been a star in the heavens, consistently there through life’s seasons, giving light, food for thought, and a gentle reminder of Jesus’ directions and presence in the world. It boggles my mind to think back, as my time with you started mid-college (2008) and has now spanned first jobs (you’ll remember my emails to you, as the mail room guy), engagement, marriage, and four kids. The God Journey has been a needed gentle whisper of life and God through it all.  For my wife, the podcast has been a different experience, but like the way Father weaves it all together – just what is needed for her Journey. Not coming from a Protestant background, or considering herself wanting to be all that close with Jesus, the God Journey has been that voice that has just the right touch. Avoiding the preachy nature of many Christian voices that have been a huge turn off, The God Journey has been at a human level relatable, and the right temperature to slowly wade in and try the water. The regular discussion of God’s love in a way wholly different from that traditional to Christianity, talking about forgiveness, the joys and struggles of parenting, and the other treasures of this Kingdom, are topics that continually draw us in. Thank you for simply sharing daily life, growth, struggles, and discussions between such kind, generous, wise, and down-to-earth brothers and sisters. The God Journey has been life-giving, inspirational, and thought-provoking, and I’m hoping to have the companionship and life commentary for many years to come, to share with my kids as they grow.

Matt (Western Australia): For me, it is in the name. It’s about God and the journey of His image being restored in us. Father, Son, and Spirit making their home within us (John 14:23). TGJ is about as routine as it gets for me these days in terms of weekly ritual. As a recovering Pharisee, I eased into listening many years ago, as I was extra cautious of anything religious. Though I loved your books, Wayne, and they helped usher in my freedom to live the life I loved, away from the tyranny of institutional religion—the futile quest to appease God by our own efforts. It is still a work in process, as we know how deep religion runs, but loving the daily moment-by-moment journey as He reveals himself more and more. It is such a dynamic process. Lately, it has been working through the process of embracing uncertainty, discomfort, insecurity, apprehension, and worry. It seems weird, but learning to befriend these dudes, as they are often the tools used to deepen our connection to Father and experience more of His presence. Rather than the futile struggle to keep them at bay, he’s teaching me to trust Him to walk me in and through them. This is where love, joy, peace, and life continue to grow. He is making us whole again and restoring His image in us. This is hard as He is dismantling the pride deep within us all. It is a dynamic life-giving process through the Spirit, and the best bit is that it can’t be controlled or contrived. We are wind riders, walking by the Spirit, and riding the wind is different for each of us. I am becoming more convinced that this is what scares the enemy the most. Institutional Christianity often paints a third-person God you can hold at arm’s length and objectify. Once you objectify him, you can try to replicate and codify just about anything to do with it in the seen, works-based world.  Then it is easy to justify ways you control, coerce, and conform others to your perspective of God. Then the life starts to dissipate. None of this seems by chance. In this way, The God Journey has also been protective in honing the yuck meter to the false and inauthentic elements of the journey.

Cyndi (Virginia): A friend introduced my husband and me to The God Journey in mid-2024, so we have a lot of material to catch up on! Imagine our surprise when Wayne met with members of the religion we had been part of all our lives on his trip to Boise, ID, in July 2025! The group is relatively small and has no official name, so how did it come on Wayne’s radar? My husband and I left the group in Fall 2023 after learning about massive Child Sexual Abuse that had been, and continues to be, covered up by the ministry for generations. Through your podcast and the resources available on your website, Lifestream.org, we are finding a pathway forward, learning what it really means to “walk with God”. You are also helping us recognize when God brings people into our lives with whom we can have fellowship. It feels like this is what God was calling us into when he called us out of religion – not a structure, but a lifestyle. So to summarize what the podcast means to my husband and me, Wayne and his hosts have kind of been a combination of Eli and Moses to us: Eli because you are teaching us how to talk with God, and Moses because you are helping guide us through the wilderness. We appreciate that you always point us to God, not yourselves, so maybe there’s a little John the Baptist mixed in there too! Thank you for sharing without charge what God has taught you.

Bill: I’ve been listening to you guys for several years, and I’ve recently started listening to episodes from the archives. Even though I no longer have to listen to you guys to confirm what I’m feeling, it’s been a joy to listen to y’all’s journeys. You have introduced new words into my vocabulary, such as living loved, sacred cow-tipping, pharisectomy, and don’t “should” on me.  Thank you for demonstrating what a real relationship with Father is like. Keep slinging that freedom.

Evan: Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and experiences on The God Journey. It has meant a lot to me in these past couple of years that I have been listening. I am a recent college graduate, and I struggled to make the Christian campus life work. I attended InterVarsity for a little over a semester and stopped attending local churches after about a year and a half. My significant other also experienced challenges during their time too. I wanted to participate in a Christian community, but I just couldn’t find myself fitting in any of them. I started listening to the podcast around my sophomore year as a recommendation from my dad. The two of you had wonderful discussions on what it means to be a Christian and how to live loved. After a couple of months of listening, you released five episodes questioning how we look at sin (viewing sin as trauma). When I look back at how I felt during this time, I see it like scales falling from my eyes as I found a new way to look at the world of sin and shame. The justice vs. righteousness discussions were also incredible. All the teachings of a rigid truth of the Bible that I previously accepted with a solemn attitude were suddenly up in the air, and I was captivated, excited, and so hopeful that this way of thinking could be truer and better than the shame and fear that I was all too familiar with. I finally began to get myself out of the box that I thought I had trapped God in. In this past year as a student, I can recall a moment of my roommate having 1-on-1 with a group leader in which he said something along the lines of, “We know that anyone who does this is going to hell, it’s right there in the Bible!” with all the enthusiasm and matter-of-factness of a college student who has it all figured out. Now equipped with my very own yuck-meter, I held this declaration with a grain of salt. I don’t feel so guilty for skipping out on these organizations anymore. I learned that God will still find ways to talk to me and that sometimes a change of pace is needed. After all, I did attend church twice a week for almost my entire life before college. However, I don’t want to discourage anyone from participating in these groups. If you find value and comfort in them, I would suggest you go for it! Your podcast has been so helpful to me and is much of the reason my faith is as strong as it is today. Thank you for sharing a freer, more beautiful, and more hopeful way of living loved.

Who would have thought this little podcast would have such a profound effect on so many people around the world. Thank you to all who took the time to share their thoughts with us. We were all deeply touched by all of them and have been blessed beyond measure to be part of these conversations. If you want to add what The God Journey has meant to you, please do so in the comments below.

 

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Where the Wind Blows

One of my favorite images of living by the Spirit comes from Jesus’s conversation with Nicodemus. “The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit. (John 3:8)” We put so much effort into our plans and strategies, when they so rarely work out the way we dreamed. A growing trust in the Father’s love opens the door for us to live by the Spirit’s leading, especially about the things that matter. That frees us to respond to the spontaneity of what’s happening around us rather than forging ahead with our plans.

That has become even more true in our lives over the past few years. With Sara’s recovery from trauma and my medical condition and treatment, we have come to treasure each day as we respond to the circumstances we face and the nudges of the Spirit to help us navigate them. We are finding hope and joy as we ride the wind of the Spirit during these days.

Along with that, we are feeling drawn to take another trip together this fall, Lord willing. It will be our first in over a year. We still need to get some final clearances on some health issues, but we thought we’d put it out there now in case people along our route want to connect with us. Our first destination will be Golden, CO, to visit our son and his wife (Aug. 26 – Sept. 4), before heading north to Rapid City, SD (Sept. 4 – 8), Sheridan, WY (Sept 9-11), then perhaps to a stop in Bozeman, MT on our way to Glacier National Park. That much we know, weather and health permitting. From there, we are less certain. We may go up to Calgary, AB, to visit some dear friends in that area or head across to Coeur d’Alene and then to the Pacific Northwest before making our way back home in mid-October.

As with the other trips we’ve done, this will unfold as we go, and we’ll meet with people along the way who want to have conversations with us about living loved, recovery from trauma, or any of the other themes that fill my writings and podcasts.  We’re posting this because if you are near our route and would like to connect with us to gather with some people in your area, please let us know. This way, we can be aware of it as the trip unfolds and see where Jesus might lead us.

A few weeks ago, I went to Boise, ID, to meet with people who have recently left an international fellowship that used controlling tactics and where many in leadership have been accused of child sexual abuse. Somehow, many of them started reading Finding Church and wondered what else God might have for them. News of that event has spread, and now many who’ve left that group are inviting us to come and help them. Many are now also reading He Loves Me and So You Don’t Want to Go to Church Anymore. Some of them are along this route. Both Sara and I feel a connection to these people in this season, so we are doing what we can to help encourage them to continue their faith journey beyond the pain of what they have suffered.

Being windblown by his Spirit is helpful in these days because we have to be flexible to the realities of the road and what is going on with both of us. If you’re interested in connecting with us, please send me an email, and we’ll add you to the list. We may have to arrange a gathering on short notice as this trip unfolds, but we can both trust that if Jesus wants us to have a connection, he will arrange it so that we’ll both have the space in our schedules when we pass by.

We are also in the final stages of releasing the complete book of It’s Time: Letters to the Bride of Christ at the End of the Age. Part 1 is already out, but we’ll soon have the whole book complete. Surprisingly, his book is already creating quite a stir among people in the publishing trade.

Finally, Tobie and I are also nearing completion of the manuscript for the book on justice and righteousness.  We’ve yet to come up with the killer title, but we’re seeing where it goes. One advance reader sent me his assessment:

This was a phenomenal read. Perhaps the most important book written for our time, in my humble opinion. The reality of justice found within love properly understood resets scripture to its original intent, revealing a purpose and trajectory in it of love, justice, and the Kingdom of God, eternal life. You did an excellent job of avoiding the trappings of offering a “better” system and, depending on the reader, either invited them to embark on a journey of their own discovery or helped to harmonize their experience of living loved with the truth of scripture. Well done.

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Overflowing with Thanksgiving

I got this the other day from our friends in Kenya:

On behalf of International Gospel Equipping Ministries (IGEM), we would like to express our deepest gratitude and heartfelt appreciation for your unwavering partnership and support, which has spanned over fifteen years. Your love, sacrifices, and faithfulness in the mission of Christ have brought transformation to countless lives and communities across Kenya and East Africa.
Through your generous support, we have witnessed God’s hand move powerfully through numerous projects and outreaches, including:
  • Installation of irrigation systems in Pokot, ensuring food security and sustainable agriculture, through planting of maize plantation, cassava and arrow roots.
  • Medical dispensary in Pokot, offering access to essential healthcare.
  • School in Pokot, bringing education to children in remote areas. Now many children are in school and they help their parents to know how to read the Bible, which is a big transformation.
  • Grains Enterprise has helped support the school feeding program in North Pokot and continues to bless the community. Likewise, the bottled water company continues to benefit the Forkland community and school in numerous ways.
  • Petrol station in Bungoma to generate income that sustains living Loved children Care center and the needy families in mount Elgon.
  • The Forkland Community water project, giving hundreds access to clean and safe water.
  • Installation of a solar system to boost the water project’s efficiency and sustainability, resulting in electricity savings. 
In addition, we are especially grateful for your continued support of children pursuing higher education at the university and college level. Many, such as Nelly, Faith, Ochieng, Brian, and Edu, have graduated and are now working, with some already supporting others in their home villages. This ripple effect of kindness and opportunity is a testimony of God’s grace working through you.
May the Lord bless all brothers and sisters who have sacrificially stood with Kenyan families—even while facing needs of your own. Your example of love is inspiring. We thank God for using you to stand with communities here, and we are humbled by your quick responses and spiritual encouragement.
“God is not unjust; He will not forget your work and the love you have shown Him as you have helped His people and continue to help them.” Hebrews 6:10
Brother Wayne, we are grateful for your inspiring books—“So You Don’t Want to Go to Church Anymore”, “He Loves Me”, “Authentic Relationships”, and many others. These writings have touched lives and transformed hearts across the African continent.
With love and sincere appreciation,
Brother Michael and Thomas
I am also grateful to all who responded so quickly. We had the money they needed within a week, and they were able to get the new equipment installed and operational again.  There was a problem with the electricity, requiring an additional $2500.00, but some late donations were able to cover that as well. Please note that all donations sent to us for Kenya are delivered to Kenya. When extra comes in, we include that in our gifts to them. There is no end to the needs in this part of the world.
Over the last 17 years, the people who frequent this blog and listen to The God Journey have given so much to these people. Your generosity reminds me of Paul’s words to the Corinthians:

Each of you should give what you have decided in your heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.

As it is written:

              “They have freely scattered their gifts to the poor;
                          their righteousness endures forever.”

Now he who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will also supply and increase your store of seed and will enlarge the harvest of your righteousness. You will be enriched in every way so that you can be generous on every occasion, and through us, your generosity will result in thanksgiving to God.

I know those verses are often used to cajole people into giving. How much better to use it for the generosity that has already been shared.

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Caught More Than Taught

I am in Boise, ID this weekend sharing some of what it means to live loved through some of the brutal crises of life. We have some people here hurt from their association with a religious group that was overtly legalistic and has a significant number of their leadership involved in sexual predation of children. It’s horrific, but the people who are finding freedom from that that group are amazing people with hearts still leaning toward the love of God through all that pain.

There are others here as well who are just readers of my books or listeners to The God Journey. This is my first trip without Sara in three years. It feels weird, but we both felt this trip was something God wanted, while Sara stayed home to enjoy a visit from her college roommate.

As The God Journey approaches our 1,000th episode since its inception in 2005, we have asked listeners to share with us what the podcast has meant to them. We are going to read some of them on that podcast as Brad and Kyle both join in to celebrate the journey.  This morning, I woke up to this email.  It touched me deeply, encouraging my heart with gracious words, but more importantly how it shows that the life of Jesus is something we catch through a variety of inputs, rather than following a prescribed program from a seminar or book. That’s why we’ve put out so many different tools here, and why I’ve traveled to Boise this weekend, to help people see facets of a life born of love, so that they can discover more clearly how Jesus is making himself known in them.

I love this email, from someone in Austria enmeshed in a legalistic religious group, finding her freedom in the life of Jesus:

As an enthusiastic podcast listener from Austria, I am pleased to be able to speak up. A few years ago I read your book He Loves Me. It had appealed to me, but my heart was still so caught up in legalism that the truths could not fall on prepared ground. Seven years ago, after many years of legalism and serious but desperate discipleship, I found myself in a desert. I was totally burned out, taken out of the race and I just had to capitulate.

There, I had only one question: “Who am I?” Over the course of several years, Jesus took me by the hand and taught me step by step who Heavenly Father was and who I was. I came across the book: Finding Church and was shocked. It accurately described my situation and that of my very legal church. Suddenly I noticed that this book was by the same author as the book He Loves Me and So You Don’t Want To Go To Church Anymore.

My curiosity was aroused and went online in search of sermons from you, Wayne. That’s when I came across Transition and I was totally moved. These lectures helped me so much. And then I searched your website and came across The God Journey. I was so hungry for these truths and wanted to know about people who lived what you had talked about in the talk. I didn’t know any Christians around me, and I was so grateful to see you, Wayne and Kyle, who talked about it and lived it in their lives. I then listened to your podcasts and soaked up everything that tasted like life and freedom – and there was a lot of it!!!

It was my provisions and my comfort in my legalistic environment!!

I have been able to learn so much through and from you in the last few years. I experienced your crises and victories a bit and you were role models for me! THANK YOU!!!

And what was one of the most exciting things for me: not only did I experience change, but I was able to experience “live” in the podcast how you changed under the loving gaze of the Father. I felt how you, Wayne, just in your brokenness due to your marital crisis, became softer and gentler. I think you can even see that in your voice and in your warmth. And you Kyle, through the years that I “follow” you, you have learned so many valuable insights and above all pastoral help yourself and passed it on to me/us.

Without your podcast, my life would be a lot poorer and more joyless. Every Friday I look forward to the new episode and often listen to it more often until the new one is broadcast again. I am fascinated by the fact that God can connect hearts with each other over so many kilometers and from such different cultures. But that’s what the Bible says. What a privilege that I can experience it in my life.

I thank you and I am happy that you have such a big heart for brothers and sisters who have also set out on the God journey!

THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!

 

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Chapter 21: And Then the End Shall Come

(Note:  First, I am thrilled to announce that we’ve secured the necessary funds to rescue the water enterprise in Kenya. Thank you for your generosity once again.  And now, here’s the last chapter of It’s Time: Letters to the Bride of Christ at the End of the Age. Whether he comes in the next fifteen years or the next one hundred and fifty years, how do we live in light of his return? We have already released the first part of this book in print, and now we will combine it with the last part. You can also access the previous chapters here.)

 

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It has been 2,000 years since Jesus promised to return. How do you keep your hope up that he will? Do you ever wonder whether we’ve missed something here? Since I don’t have a clue when he might come, I don’t see how it’s relevant to the decisions I have to make today.  

Janine, office manager and grandmother in Ireland

Hi Janine,

That has been my dilemma most of my life. In my younger days, people talked about him coming before I would graduate from high school. I dreaded the idea of judgment, and I didn’t want my life cut short here. As so many predictions of his return came and went without effect, the hope of his coming fell into the background, irrelevant to how I lived.

If we knew he was coming in two years, wouldn’t we make different decisions than we would if we knew it wasn’t going to happen for another fifty? Perhaps that’s why we don’t know. Anticipating his return is a matter of the heart, hoping in the final resurrection, rather than information for financial or career choices. I’ve known many who thought they had it figured out, only to make horrible choices that ruined their lives.

As these days have darkened with growing polarization, global conflicts, natural disasters, and environmental challenges filling every news cycle, his coming now seems almost a necessity to rescue us from ourselves. Now, I cannot wait for the moment when the same Jesus who walked the hills of Galilee, surrendered his life to the cross, rose victorious over death, and revealed himself to countless people throughout history, will bodily reappear on planet Earth. He, whom we’ve only known by presence, will become materially present, and we will know him as fully as he has always known us.

At his coming, Jesus will expose the dark powers that rule the earth, and the old order of those who compete for influence and power will dissolve into nothing. Kings, presidents, prime ministers, dictators, and CEOs will all lose their power, national identities will be obliterated, and suffering will cease at last. Though I have lost sight of it at times, I’ve never doubted that he will yet come.

That’s when God’s work of redeeming Creation will reach its climax. In the blink of an eye, all we have known will be reconstituted into a new heaven and new earth that will abound with his love and life. What we’ve known in glimpses, we will see in fullness when sin, fear, and pain are abolished.

Creation has longed for it since humanity crashed into the wall of its waywardness. The day of his coming is why the Psalmist pictures the trees singing for joy, the seas resounding, and all Creation rejoicing: God is coming to judge the world (Psalm 98). I know many of us were taught to fear his judgment, but Creation doesn’t, and I don’t anymore. On that day, he will set right all that has been corrupted on this planet.

The end of this age will also be the beginning of a new and better one. Jesus will take his rightful place as Lord of all, and Creation will thrive in a justice born of love and tenderness. The oppressed will go free, sickness gone, the lies we’ve believed will dissolve in the light, and we will forever be with him in his eternal kingdom. To those who find their fulfillment in the world, that day may be tragic. But for those who have found their home in Jesus, it will fulfill every unmet desire and unsatisfied dream.

 

Why Is He Waiting?

One of the great mysteries of human history is how slowly God appears to move by our perception. God’s purpose seems to unfold at a painstaking pace. People have navigated the darkness of human fallenness for centuries, and Israel bore 1500 years under the weight of a law they could not keep. The early followers thought his return was imminent over 2000 years ago. Even in the Incarnation, God was not in a hurry. Jesus came to rescue the world as an embryo in the womb of a maiden, then spent thirty years as an infant and young man before he began to share the glory of his kingdom and prepare for his atoning death.

All we’re told is that he came “in the fullness of time” (Galatians 4:1-5). Paul didn’t explain all that meant, but he compared it to children under a tutor who had become heirs and no longer needed to be schooled. Jesus didn’t come the first time at some arbitrary date, but only when events on the earth allowed the Incarnation to play out to maximum effect. Perhaps human culture had to grow in its capacity to appreciate grace for him to open the door of salvation. Before that, God used law and punishment to control humanity’s destructive instincts. And yet today, many who claim to be Christians still struggle to embrace his love as the transforming power of the universe.

I suspect his second coming will also come in the “fullness of time.” I doubt he is waiting for a prescribed date, though, by his foreknowledge, he would know it. I’m sure there are many factors that will determine when this planet is ready for the final act of redemption. Peter told us that any delay is a sign of his great patience to redeem as many as possible (II Peter 3:8-9). Perhaps the world must grow darker yet, or he’s waiting until our only hope is in him, not what we can do to fix the planet.

Jesus must reign, Paul writes (I Cor 15:25-27), until all his enemies have been subdued under his feet. Then he will abolish all rule, authority, and power and present the kingdom to his Father. Does that just happen at the end of the age, or is it a work he’s been doing behind the scenes? Honestly, I don’t know, but it does seem the forces of evil still prevail in human history.

Or it may be that the Bride herself has something to do with it. What if he stands at the door of the world even now, waiting for an invitation from the redeemed to step across the threshold? The bullies have taken over the house, and the world is in chaos. They know that those final days will be filled with pain, but they invite him anyway. “Lord Jesus, come quickly.”

I wouldn’t be definitive about any of this. We make a grave error when we assume we know the motives of God. Paul reminded us not to judge each other’s motives because we often don’t even know our own (I Cor 4:1-5). How much more difficult would it be to guess what motivates God beyond the fact that he loves us deeply and is taking the surest route to redemption?

 

Revival First?

Many of my friends are anticipating a worldwide revival before his appearing, like the Great Awakenings of old. They will chase all over the world if they hear any sign of one.

Am I looking for a revival? Not in the same way. While I would love to see a fresh outpouring of his Spirit to draw people to himself, I have no preconception of what that might look like. Most of what we call revival is people groveling in the shame of their failures through public repentance, rather than coming alive in his love. It’s easy to forget that all movements of God go to die in the structures we create to contain them.

Where I see people focused on revival through prayer networks and prophetic words, the life of Jesus is mostly absent. Their focus is largely on their own success and their efforts. They manipulate obscure passages of Scripture to bolster their hope and exploit crowds of people with false comfort. They find comfort in outlandish “manifestations” that are easily manipulated by crowd dynamics. I’m reminded how wrong the Jewish messianic expectations were when Jesus first came. Looking back, we can see how clearly Scripture mapped out these things, yet we often forget that we do so through the benefit of hindsight.

Jesus told us not to seek revival somewhere else. “The kingdom of God will not come with observable signs. Nor will people say, ‘Look, here it is,’ or ‘There it is.’ For you see, the kingdom of God is in your midst” (Luke 17:20-21).

I already see a fresh wave of God’s Spirit inviting people to a deeper touch with Jesus. Those he is stirring are not looking for a man to follow, a certain type of euphoric gathering, or the political power to dominate the culture. Instead, they are coming alive to God’s presence within them. They are learning to rest from their own labors, either to draw closer to God or to become more righteous. They are growing confident in his love and talk of Jesus as a real presence who is leading and guiding them.

This work of God is decentralized and lies beneath the radar of those looking for outward signs. These people are rising simultaneously all over the world because it is a work of the Spirit, not a fixation on a human leader, author, or influencer. As the Spirit of God draws them back to first love—how deeply they are loved by God—they become more at rest in him, freer to love others and more attuned to his voice as their life unfolds.

There’s a huge difference between being led by the Spirit and living by principles, no matter how good they may be. Seek revival, and you’re guaranteed to miss him because he will come in ways you won’t expect. Follow him, and you’ll find yourself an increasing part of God’s redemption in the world.

 

Living in Redemption

How do we live in anticipation of his return? I’ve seen too many people, focused on the immediacy of his second coming, forgo college, quit their jobs, and abandon their responsibilities because they think they won’t matter. That may be why God doesn’t reveal the time of his Son’s appearing. If he did, we would make poor choices based on our own presumptions rather than following his lead.

Anticipating his coming doesn’t fix on a date. The early Christians were invited to live that way thousands of years ago. Expectancy about his coming helps us hold on to him in the unfolding circumstances of our lives, to endure the unendurable, and to find his calming voice in times of trouble. It is less about our material concerns than it is yielding to his kingdom growing in us. Embracing the assurance of his ultimate victory will sharpen our priorities in the present.

Many seek to promote fear with false conspiracies and geopolitical predictions. They know how easily they can manipulate our fears to seek vengeance for the “other” and to seek retribution for those we perceive as our enemy. However, the end of the age is not about vengeance from God’s perspective; it’s about redemption. Give in to vengeance against evil, and it will blind you to God’s love, replacing it with hatred for those who aren’t like you and make you a party to the us vs. them theatrics that are tearing our world apart.

Redemption can happen wherever God’s love encounters the chaos of a fallen world. That’s what Jesus did in his living and his dying. If you truly anticipate his redemption at the end of the age, you will embrace it as it appears in your life today. You’ll wake up looking for ways God’s love in you can touch the agony of human failure and pain around you.

So, instead of trying to control the chaos of darkness or even defeat it, you can leave that to Jesus, whose task it has always been. Yours is to learn to live in the chaos, looking for ways God wants to make his love known in us and through us. Who is he giving me to love today, and how can I support them as they traverse the chaos? Where is he asking me to lay myself down to help alleviate the sufferings of others so that love can do its work?

For most of my life, the only strategy I had in facing the chaos of darkness was to ask God to fix it, whether that meant healing my diseases, changing my misfortunes, or punishing those who caused me grief. When he failed to do so, it was easy to question his love for me or if I was doing enough to merit the fix I wanted.

Now, I’m learning to negotiate the chaos around me inside his redemptive purpose. Isn’t that what Jesus did? He didn’t fix all the chaos around him, but submitted to his Father’s purpose in the lies of the Pharisees, the brutality of Roman rule, and even the betrayal of his closest friends. So, now I ask, how does loss draw me closer to him? How does my pain open a wider door into my dependence on his love? How do the unjust actions of others reveal the darker places still in my heart?

Yes, I talk to him about healing my cancer. I would love that. But when he hasn’t done it yet, I ask how he wants to walk with me through it. He can heal it at any time, but I have lived long enough to know that his miracles are not at our beck and call, and he has many other ways to love us when we are tormented by darkness.

That kind of love rearranges our hearts from the inside, making us more loving, gracious, and a comfort to others. Watching for his redemptive hand around me each day has become an adventure that sets me at ease in crisis and shows me how to sit with others in their pain. I don’t have to fix them; I just get to be present as love does its work.

And I anticipate with joy the day when all the chaos and conflict will be overturned by Jesus’s final redemption. I also look for that in every circumstance I encounter. Where does love lead me, and how will gentleness and kindness help me discover the better version of me?

I now understand that the work of redemption cannot be reduced to institutional programs or political agendas, where we strive to impose virtue on the reluctant. Jesus didn’t use such tactics, nor did he teach his disciples to do so. Those who seek to dominate this world in his name have no idea who he is. His kingdom is an invitation, never an imposition. People emerge from the darkness when they experience a love greater than themselves. You don’t learn that from books or in seminars, but only by facing your challenges with the love, courage, and wisdom of the Spirit.

I don’t know how he will sort out his redemption in the world. I don’t know how he works out justice in the life to come. I don’t know how he will make up for the incredible damage some people have suffered at the hands of others. Not all accounts get squared in this life, that’s for sure. How does the villain find his justice, and his victim her recompense?

But I know him, and I entrust all my unanswered questions to the Father I love and to Jesus, who will get the final word on everyone and everything. He is loving, kind, and fair in ways I could never imagine. I look forward to the day that all of this will finally make sense. What was life all about here, and what will eternity look like when chaos is no more?

 

Come, Lord Jesus!

Janine, we began this book with the call that it’s time for the sons and daughters of God to be revealed. Whether Jesus’s second coming is just around the corner or still a hundred years out is not in my purview. But it is for me to live the redemption I hope for in the way I treat people today.

Won’t you join me?

These pages carry a gentle invitation to draw into the deep places where our love and trust in him aren’t based on us getting what we want, but the simple and profound magnificence of his presence in us. This is how Jesus prepares us for whatever may come. Too many followers of Jesus are playing the world’s games, thinking they are following Jesus. They have been deluded by the lie that the kingdom comes by coercion. Their wounded hearts look to lash out at their perceived enemies. Their only hope is to be loved back into life, where the tactics of darkness hold no sway.

Throughout my preparations for this book and its writing, I have been gathering twice a month with a team from across the world. We gaze with him at the world as he invites us to learn love more deeply and share it generously, especially with people we have mistakenly seen as our enemies. We hope many others are doing the same.

We are learning many of the things you’ve read about in this book. We are continually drawn to the great need in our world for followers of Jesus to be more deeply tuned to his Spirit, finding their direction not from human reasoning, but by catching the wind of the Spirit. His victory is coming, and his grace will be sufficient for every challenge we face.

We share Creation’s joy for those who reflect God’s glory in the world. The time of his coming may be at hand; the time for us to reveal his love definitely is.

“Even so, come quickly, Lord Jesus.” (Revelation 22:20)

That phrase makes my heart soar in a way it hasn’t before. I’m convinced we live in the moments before the dawn. Certainly, darkness seems to rule everywhere we look, but for those with eyes to see, the skies have already begun to brighten ever-so-slightly on the eastern horizon.

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Here We Go Again…

I got a disturbing email today. After just completing a rescue at the petrol station near Kitale, we received word that the water enterprise in Forkland was closed by the government today. The picture above is of the inspectors carrying out the old bottling machine. Here’s the email I received:

Dear brother Wayne,
The government team arrived to inspect the water operation. After three hours of inspection, the machine, licenses, labels, storage tanks, and laboratory all passed inspection.  However, they found that the bottling machine is old and needs to be replaced. They removed the machine, placed it in storage, and marked it with an X. So, everything has stopped, and the company has been closed down until we replace the machine.  The children and staff at Forkland Community are full of grief over what has happened.
We have $450 in cash at hand, but the total cost of the installation and the machine is $37,500. Once we pay within 10 days, we can open the enterprise again.
We really apologize for this issue, since you just helped us solve the problem at the petrol station. It is really discouraging, and thank you so much for always standing with us.
We are praying that God may open a way. I think this is the last problem.
Yours,
Brother Michael and Thomas

For those unfamiliar with the entire story, in 2019, the well at Forkland School was polluted, and the school had to close. We helped them drill a well there, and it struck a deep aquifer with clear, pure water. Not only would the school have water, but it also provided additional water free of charge to the impoverished community surrounding the school. Others suggested that they could bottle and sell the water throughout Kenya as an enterprise that would cover the school’s expenses. All was going well until this inspection, which also coincided with the government’s requirement for machines that tabulate taxes more automatically. This is because many bottling companies have been underreporting taxes. This has affected all water bottling in Kenya, even the honest ones. They all have to replace machines with those that track the amount of water being bottled for the government.

So, here I am again, wondering if God wants us to provide this $37,000 for our friends there. Yes, it feels yuckky. The government in Kenya is sucking every dollar it can from its citizens, but without this extra money, the enterprise will be shut down, and with it the free education being offered to this needy community. Over the last 18 years, individuals connected to Lifestream and The God Journey have invested over $3.5 million to support this region of Kenya. We’ve always tried to leave enterprises to put them in a position to meet their ongoing expenses, so they wouldn’t become dependent on us and have a means to trust God for their future needs. They were not, however, prepared for the new, heavy-handed requirements of the Kenyan government. So, they have come looking for our help.

It seems that God has assigned us to this corner of the world to help with the life-and-death needs of those who have so little. We rescued nearly 200,000 nomadic tribal people in Pokot, provided for orphans and widows in Kitale, and helped rescue and educate children in neglected areas of Kenya. In all these places, multitudes of people have come to face-to-face with God’s love and come to faith in him. Sara and I’ve always been impressed by the generosity of so many of you helping people you’ve never met. I’ve been there, blessed by the integrity of the people we are serving and how the money they ask for does not directly benefit them, but serves the people around them. You’ve been amazing in your generosity, and our friends have been equally impressive in theirs.

Once more, we need to help them here, or this enterprise and school will cease to exist. And we need to do it quickly.  Hopefully, this is the last of these needs. In our previous appeal, people continued to give after the need had been met. So, we already have a few thousand in our Kenya Fund; we just need substantially more.

Would you please help us help again? We need the funds immediately since the enterprise is now closed. If you can help us raise $37,000 to restore their business, please visit our Donation Page at Lifestream. Please designate “Kenya” in the Note section of your donation, or email us to let us know that your gift is intended for Kenya. You can also Venmo contributions to “@LifestreamMinistries” or mail a check to Lifestream Ministries  • 1560 Newbury Rd Ste 1  •  Newbury Park, CA 91320. Or, if you prefer, we can take your donation over the phone at (805) 498-7774.

As always, every dime you send will end up in Kenya. We do not take out any money for our administrative costs.

Thank you for your concern and prayers for these people in Kenya.

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“A Tender, Urgent, Spirit-infused Call”

First, I want to thank all of you who helped us save the petrol station in Kenya, which supports impoverished families near Kitale. As of last Friday, we were short almost $5,000 from reaching our goal. Someone called that morning and wanted to provide whatever we still needed. So, we had all we needed to help our friends. You have so often amazed me with your generosity, and it spills over into great thanksgiving to God for how he has helped us time and time again intervene on their behalf.

Additionally, I would like to share with you a review I received from Citi of Books regarding my new book, It’s Time: Letters to the Bride of Christ at the End of the Age. They have captured the heart in both the content and spirit of what I wanted this book to convey. For someone not associated with my book or familiar with what I do at Lifestream and TheGodJourney, I’m blown away by their gracious words:

Wayne Jacobsen’s It’s Time! is a tender, urgent, and Spirit-infused call to the heart of every believer who dares to ask: What if Jesus is coming back sooner than we think—and are we living like it matters? In this moving collection of spiritual letters, Jacobsen writes not with fear or fanaticism, but with deep love and prophetic insight—guiding Christ’s followers into readiness not just for His return, but for the kind of radiant, resilient faith needed in these final hours.

Drawing from the imagery of the Bride of Christ, Jacobsen paints a portrait of a people set apart—longing not for escape, but for intimacy with the Bridegroom. His tone is pastoral and poetic, rooted in Scripture and overflowing with wisdom born of experience and prayer. As he walks the hills near his home and listens to the whisper of the Spirit, he passes on that whisper to us—reminding us of what it means to live faithfully in an age clouded by darkness and deception.

This is not apocalyptic speculation. It’s spiritual preparation. With honesty and clarity, Jacobsen reminds us that whether Christ returns in 10 years or 150, there must always be a generation willing to:

  • Love beyond self-preservation
  • Shine brighter than the lies of the age
  • Walk in unshakable trust amid the shaking of nations
  • Anchor hope not in outcomes, but in God’s sovereign story

What makes It’s Time! so compelling is that it doesn’t scream for attention—it sings. It calls quietly, yet powerfully, to the Bride of Christ to awaken, to prepare, and to live as though eternity is nearer than we think.

Wayne Jacobsen has given the global Church a gift: a love letter from heaven echoed through the voice of a faithful servant. It’s Time! is not just about eschatology—it’s about transformation. It’s about what kind of people we’re becoming as we wait, watch, and witness. Whether you’re weary, wondering, or wide awake, this book will call you higher—to readiness, to holiness, and to Jesus.

Don’t just read it. Respond to it.

Because maybe… it really is time.

Wow! I am so grateful.

I’m currently writing the final chapter of Part 2, and then the book will be available in its entirety.  If you don’t have your copy of Part 1, you can order it from Amazon on Kindle or in paperback. The ebook is only $4.99, and the paperback is $7.99.

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