Am I Totally Sold Out To Jesus?

I remember singing the old hymn, Is Your All On the Altar? and hoping desperately it was. It was a popular song at revival meetings, last day at camp, and those it’s-time-to-repent-and-get-serious-with-Jesus sermons. We’d all go forward, pledge our new-found commitment and then find a few hours, days or weeks later that we’d lost it again. We weren’t completely sold out and we’d just have to try harder.

Honestly now, I think it is one of the traps of the enemy to keep us focused on ourselves instead of living this journey in the freedom of the Spirit where we are transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory. (2 Corinthians 3)

That came up in a recent email exchange that might be of interest to some of you:

About the way God is speaking to us and the fact that He wants all of us. And to do that totally we have to die to self, selfish wants, selfish desires, etc. It is funny though the very moment that you think you have done that, God still wants even more. Meaning when I was going through that season I must say I felt like I completely died to a lot of selfish desires and wants… So now that brings to the hard question for myself…Have I completely died and given everything to God? The mere fact I am asking the questions implies that maybe I haven’t. So now what? Where to go from here?

My response: I think I see this journey a bit different than you do. I don’t think any of us have completely died and given everything to God… Life with him is a process and hopefully each day more of me dies so that more of him can live through me. I expect that process to continue until he call me home, either through physical death or his physical appearing. Then and only then, when this corruptible puts on incorruptibility will it be said that I am completely his…

Until then we live in the conflict between the old Wayne and the new. Some days I live more freely in him than others. Some days he is letting some of those old things be exposed in me, so that I might learn how to lay them at his feet.

I used to think like you do—that there was some way to be totally surrendered to him. I can only surrender to him today, to the degree that I am aware how to do that. I am much more blessed knowing that is an ongoing process and not having to pretend I’m at its end. That way when new bits of his glory or Wayne’s old nature pop up, I am not discouraged. I am excited to embrace whatever new chapter and new depth he opens for me.

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  1. J February 23, 2005 at 9:17 pm

    Sup’?

    What a wonderful article/email exchange Wayne. I fee that you have explained this very clearly for all of us to get a better understanding of the truth. It is so easy to get caught up in ourselves and in the end of that thinking, believe that we are losers or even that we are so wonderful based of how good or bad we are that day. It is not what we can do, but what Jesus did and still does for us. That thinking is nothing but a self-imposed prison that does not see the daylight.

    To see the light, we obviously must focus on Jesus more and less of ourselves. Jesus is where it all begins and ends. You have really encouraged me to not be so discouraged.

    Thanks Wayne—J

  2. J February 24, 2005 at 12:17 am

    Sup’?

    What a wonderful article/email exchange Wayne. I fee that you have explained this very clearly for all of us to get a better understanding of the truth. It is so easy to get caught up in ourselves and in the end of that thinking, believe that we are losers or even that we are so wonderful based of how good or bad we are that day. It is not what we can do, but what Jesus did and still does for us. That thinking is nothing but a self-imposed prison that does not see the daylight.

    To see the light, we obviously must focus on Jesus more and less of ourselves. Jesus is where it all begins and ends. You have really encouraged me to not be so discouraged.

    Thanks Wayne—J

  3. J February 24, 2005 at 2:10 pm

    I was thinking about this blog some more this morning when I read Philippians 3:13. In it Paul states, "Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead." –NKJV

    I think that this pertains to dying to self even more that I imagined initially. The way I used to look at this scripture was to find grace for my shortcomings from the past, but I now believe that this scripture also represents the positive things that I may have done through God’s grace. In other words, I should not be satisfied and self-righteous about the "good things" I have done.

    As Christians, we should never think that we have done our part. What we should constantly think is, what is my part, right here right now? That we we are continuously making ourselves available to reach out in any direction that God provides for us. Surrendering is a continous action done to the best of our abilities. If we fall short every now and then, then thanks be to God that He makes us worthy to find His grace and try again each and every moment.

    God bless—-J

  4. J February 24, 2005 at 5:10 pm

    I was thinking about this blog some more this morning when I read Philippians 3:13. In it Paul states, "Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead." –NKJV

    I think that this pertains to dying to self even more that I imagined initially. The way I used to look at this scripture was to find grace for my shortcomings from the past, but I now believe that this scripture also represents the positive things that I may have done through God’s grace. In other words, I should not be satisfied and self-righteous about the "good things" I have done.

    As Christians, we should never think that we have done our part. What we should constantly think is, what is my part, right here right now? That we we are continuously making ourselves available to reach out in any direction that God provides for us. Surrendering is a continous action done to the best of our abilities. If we fall short every now and then, then thanks be to God that He makes us worthy to find His grace and try again each and every moment.

    God bless—-J

  5. Kari Anderson February 20, 2008 at 1:51 pm

    I agree….we can only surrender what we have at the moment and hope and desire to surrender all, and only if an ultimate test approaches us will we know just how committed we actually are. This page I wrote about common symbols for Jesus has helped me realize that He is not “out of reach” but easily within our grasp and He will certainly help us “give Him our all”.
    http://www.karipearls.com/christian-symbols.html

  6. Kari Anderson February 20, 2008 at 4:51 pm

    I agree….we can only surrender what we have at the moment and hope and desire to surrender all, and only if an ultimate test approaches us will we know just how committed we actually are. This page I wrote about common symbols for Jesus has helped me realize that He is not “out of reach” but easily within our grasp and He will certainly help us “give Him our all”.
    http://www.karipearls.com/christian-symbols.html

  7. Queenie November 13, 2008 at 1:32 pm

    You guys are such an inspiration.Iv been trying 2live this picture perfect life but always fall short, then hate myself 4 it. Now i understand that we have all sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.But halleluja He stil loves us

  8. Queenie November 13, 2008 at 4:32 pm

    You guys are such an inspiration.Iv been trying 2live this picture perfect life but always fall short, then hate myself 4 it. Now i understand that we have all sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.But halleluja He stil loves us

  9. Pseudo June 18, 2009 at 5:36 pm

    Wouldn’t one think that if someone stated “I am not going to marry someone unless they are sold out to Jesus.” Then they are setting up an impossible scenario? Because if you find someone who is truly sold out to Jesus then for them there wouldn’t be any family? Because they had devoted their life to Jesus and nothing/no one else. Your oppinions on this please.

  10. Pseudo June 18, 2009 at 8:36 pm

    Wouldn’t one think that if someone stated “I am not going to marry someone unless they are sold out to Jesus.” Then they are setting up an impossible scenario? Because if you find someone who is truly sold out to Jesus then for them there wouldn’t be any family? Because they had devoted their life to Jesus and nothing/no one else. Your oppinions on this please.

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