Wayne Jacobsen

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During my recent sojourn around North Carolina, Tami Rumfelt, a local radio DJ asked me to do an interview for her podcast audience about what it means to live loved, and how we get distracted from doing that by our religious performance.  This interview provides a good overview of my passion to help people discover that God wants to meet us in our brokenness and lead us into the fullness of his life.   You can listen to the interview here.

Tami described the interview on her website this way:  

Does God really love me, even though I am a mess? Am I lovely to Him? How can the God that wiped out humanity in Noah’s time be the same one who “Loved the world so much he sent his only Son to die for us”? How can I have relationship with Jesus when I just can’t believe in my heart that he really likes me?

Have you struggled with these questions? I certainly have. Listen in as Wayne Jacobsen offers his thoughts about “living loved”.

During my first trip to Israel, I was a little put off by how some of the people on the tour were trying to convert your Jewish guide, Abraham.  They kept making snide asides to him as to why he didn’t accept Jesus as the Messiah.

On the last day I found myself alone with him by the bus as we were awaiting others to bring their bags from the hotel.  I fell into a conversation with Abraham and was able to ask if he’d been personally offended by some of the comments. 

He passed it off with wave.  “Not at all,” he answered.  “I’ve been doing this for twenty years. Everyone tries to convert me to their religion—Catholics, Pentecostals, Baptists, Reformed Jews, Conservative Jews, Mormans, and Muslims—everyone.”  Then he looked up at me with a smile, “Do you want to know why none of them convince me?”

“I would!” I replied.

“Come with me,” he said as he led me around the front of the bus and to the edge of the road.  “Do you see that building down there with the Star of David on it?” 

“Yes.”

“That’s ours.”

“Do you see that steeple with the cross on it across the way with the cross on it?”

I nodded.

“That’s yours.”

And then he pointed me toward the dome of a mosque on a hillside not far away.

I nodded.

“That’s theirs.”

I smiled trying to imagine what he’d say next.

“Take off the Star of David, the cross, and the dome and underneath aren’t they really all the same thing?   You would think if one of us were serving the Living God, it would look very different.”

He was right.  Christianity doesn’t look any different from the outside as any other religion.   It doesn’t surprise me that all man-made religions would have the same components at its core. The shame of the fall draws us into religious activity that seeks to appease an angry deity and to try and please him with better living.  That’s why they are laced with fear, defined sacred space, calls to sacrifice, and are led by a local, holy-man guru-type, who officiates at rituals that are meant to at times to comfort the faithful, and at other times to threaten them for not doing enough. 

If one of us were serving the Living God, it would look very different.  I think it would.  Nothing better has expressed my lifetime quest to discover what real life in Jesus would look like today, both for the individual and for the redemptive community that unveils God’s reality in the world.  How did we go from “believing what we hear”, to observing a religion more preoccupied with doctrine, ritual, and ethics?  Could it be that what we mostly see in Christianity today is a religion that well-intentioned people have created out of the teachings of Jesus, and that many of us have yet to see the church that Jesus is building in the earth? 

In the last few years I have come to the end of that quest.  I’ve been able to taste of the life of the church that is “not made with hands” all over the world as I have seen Jesus quietly knitting together a family so rich and real that it doesn’t need the religious conventions.  Surprisingly it wasn’t where I thought it would be, and far closer than I’d ever dreamed. 

For those on a similar quest I would love to help you see it too. 

Excerpt from Finding Church:  What If There Really Is Something More?

By Wayne Jacobsen, an uncompleted manuscript

(Special Note:  Abraham will also be our guide on the trip Sara and I and some of our friends will be taking to the Holy Land this February. There’s still room if you want to join us.) 
 

(Important Notice:  Before I get to today’s blog I want to warn you that we’re going to shut Lifestream down for a couple of days beginning on Tuesday evening here in the States, to move it to a new server.  I apologize for any inconvenience, but among the website issues we’ve had to resolve this spring is the fact that our bandwidth needs have grown tremendously in the last few months and our current server just can’t handle it for us economically.  I apologize for any inconvenience it causes.  I hope after this we can just run smoothly for awhile.)

During my recent trip to North Carolina I had the chance to sit down with a couple in their home. As we shared our journeys the husband mentioned that even though he had a seminary degree he couldn’t understand how the God of the Old Testament and the God of the New could be the same God.  Theology told him it was, but he hadn’t worked it out.

How could the same God who seemed so vicious in Old Testament history be the same God whom Jesus talked about and demonstrated as he partied with sinners, healed the sick, and shared such compassion to mend the broken-hearted.  He thought the easiest explanation was what Marcion concluded in the 2nd century—that in the Old Testament, Israel was following a false god and the real God showed up in Jesus Christ.  But, he knew Marcion was a heretic, so that couldn’t be right. 

I started into an explanation I used in my study of Scripture called The Jesus Lens.  The Old Testament tells the story of God rescuing fallen humanity and even when he had to break into human history to deal with the destructive power of sin and preserve a line that could receive his grace.  People saw God’s passion and its occasional severity as proof that he was angry with humanity.  I used the analogy of my wife bridging a relationship with battered, stray dogs that showed up at our house in Visalia.  Instead of rushing to us, they cowered in the bushes or in the darkness, afraid we would harm them, too.  Winning a dog that has been abused takes some time.  You have to work with their hunger to invite them closer to you until they can begin to believe that you are not out to hurt them but help them. 

And then this thought came to mind, “The Old Testament is the story of God’s rescue told from the dog’s perspective.”  I hadn’t thought of it that way before, but the more I’ve meditated on it, the more I like it.  That’s why there seems to be differences between the Old and New Testaments. While God has not changed, our perception of him changes greatly through the Incarnation of Jesus.  

Before we saw him through our eyes and our mistaken conclusions.  Just like the Old Testament writers who saw God through their grid of shame and fear and deemed him a terrifying judge.  Their words reflect it.  We’ve got to understand they write from a place of fear and rejection, which only makes it all the more miraculous when they get a glimpse of the loving and gracious God whose “love never fails”, whose “lovingkindness is better than life”, and whose “mercies are new every morning”.  They were torn between a God of great affection and the blindness of their own guilt and shame. 

Thankfully, Jesus comes to tell us and to show us what God is really like.  He’s not angry with us for our sin, but sees us as harassed and helpless and wants to rescue us from our bondage into his life.  He woos us into the Father’s affection and prepared a way for us to be at rest in his presence, confident that he wants us there, as he untangles the mess we’ve made of our lives.  The writers of the New Testament tells us that same story of rescue told from the dogs’ perspective who are now inside the house.  In Christ they found peace with God and no longer needed to cower in the bushes as they had become at home in him.

We all undergo that same process, don’t we?  Abused by sin and fearful that God would either ignore us or punish us, we cower in our own self-effort or self-pity, hoping against hope that he’ll be good to us, but too overwhelmed by fears to come to him.  And yet, he keeps reaching out to us until we can finally be won into his affection. 

Then when we are won into his affection, we can hold a more complete view of God and even in those moments where God is intense and severe in setting us free or keeping the world in check, we see that as an expression of his love, not his anger or rejection of us. 

I hope the analogy helps you.  It’s one I’m going to play with for awhile and see if it stands the test of time.  

Last weekend the brothers and sisters in Kenya dedicated the new gas station to the Lord’s service.  Children from Living Loved Care Centre were there to celebrate what the generosity of so many of you have provided.  My heart overflows today at their excitement that God has provided a way for them to care for the children as a result of this enterprise.  It is my joy to know that we were able to leave to something in that country that is not perpetually dependent on the West for money and resource.  The goal all along has been to be alongside them as brothers and sisters helping them learn to trust God’s provision through our own generosity.  I’m blessed this is getting there. 

So far we have sent them $80,000 to build the service station. The process has not been without it’s difficulties.  They needed an additional $8,000 to buy extra land to accommodate truck access due to where the pumps had to be installed.  When it finally opened a couple of weeks ago they were excited at the number of vehicles stopping for fuel, as well as the local people getting gas for cooking.  But then the traffic suddenly stopped on the road.  As they checked into it they discovered the government had closed the road throught that stretch for an unannounced construction project.  So after only a week of operation at the scale they anticipated, sales have dropped to near nothing as there is no traffic on the road.  This project was unannounced and unforseen, and is only supposed to last a couple of months before the road reopens again to hopefully increased traffic.  

We still need funds to help offset the original $80,000 and now we need an additional $3,000.00 per month through July and August to pay for food and staff at the orphange until the traffic resumes.  So the work goes on and we’re standing with them as God makes provision for a people so impoverished by the harsh conditions of East Africa.  I am so grateful for how many of you have been part of this with us, sending in your contributions to help the brothers and sisters there.  They are blessed as well.  I did receive this email last week from our contact there:  

Greetings in Jesus name , I finished the mission in Uganda and I am now in Kenya, last Saturday and Sunday we had a very wonderful dedication prayer, some of the children from living Loved centre were leading in prayer and singing , I took the time to share about you for what the lord had done through your hand, we got this project and Living Loved Care centre.  The first prayer it was for your family, second is for your ministry and the third is for the friends , brothers and sisters over there who stretch their hands towards this project.  The prayer team work came from all over from different of the regions.

Another thing, thank you very much for understanding our need, which Thomas shared with you due to road construction for continuing stretching the hands for the kids, I appreciate really for the heart of love and caring, may the lord bless you  so much as I look forward to hear from you, the construction of the exit is complete we appreciate so much for the extension of the land.
                                                  Yours,
                                                  Brother Michael

If you would like to help us finish off the service station as well as feed and educate the children for the next two months, we and they would be grateful. If you want to know more about this project or the AIDs recovery home we also support in South Africa, you can see our Sharing With the World page at Lifestream. You can either donate with a credit card there, or you can mail a check to Lifestream Ministries • 1560 Newbury Rd, Ste 1 #313 • Newbury Park, CA 91320. Or if you prefer, we can take your donation over the phone at (805) 498-7774.

Here are some pictures they sent to celebrate their progress:

Filling the tanks for opening week

A steady stream of traffic on opening week

Girls from the orphanage prepare for the day of dedication

Preparing to officially open the service station